I only found this out today on another blog. I’ve always been a big fan of Erica Campbell; I love her sweet, girl next door smile and beautiful eyes. I’m going to paste in her statement, so you can read it yourself if you wish.
I’ve noticed a lot of spiteful, nasty comments on other blogs and forums. It’s like some guys either feel that their property has been stolen or just don’t like the idea of her switching sides. The latter are usually pseudo-intellectual types who think they’re smart because they’re atheist and anyone with a religious faith is primitive by comparison. The former are just wankers – literally, I guess.
Personally, I wish Ms. Campbell all the very best. I can see how being a glamour model and porn star (not sure about that title, but not my words) would be rather soul-destroying; being objectified and only noted for something as arbitrary as physical beauty and a “nice wrack”.
The sad thing is that images and videos of an adult nature have a certain immortality; especially when someone is as popular as Erica Campbell is. They will be around for a very long time. They will most likely outlive Erica herself. I hope her previous life leaves her alone as much as possible, but I can imagine that other people who are either exponents of pornography or aficionados will not hesitate to throw it back in her face should she decide to speak against it.
The Statement:
The Only Way Out
This message is to ALL of my friends and fans. I wasn’t sure how exactly to start this…but I trusted that God would help me write this and maybe through me I could speak His word and make His will be done…..
For a long time I have been very lost. So lost in myself and in the world that I didn’t even REALIZE that I was lost. I have always thought of myself as a pretty good person. I love helping people, I love befriending people, I love animal rescue and rehab. I care a GREAT deal for my friends and family and ALWAYS do whatever I can to care for them and make sure that they are ok. For a long time I THOUGHT that I was doing the right thing…..and doing my personal best……well…I was wrong…dead wrong.
Being in the world of adult modeling I see A LOT of pain….A LOT of heart break. SO many lost girls get into this business just for some extra money….to help pay for school….to help support themselves or even their children as single moms. “It’s just temporary”. They are only going to do this for a while…just a few shoots.
I too started out to make some extra money to help me finish school. Almost ALL of the time It doesn’t end where you think it will…..the path goes on……the hole gets deeper….and the road gets darker. MOST of the time the girls don’t even realize it. One day you see this bright beautiful girl shooting tame nudes…the next they are signing on the dotted line of a hard-core porn company. Lost. Broken. Alone.
I being on the other side of these pictures you don’t see the pain these girls are in. The struggle….the drugs that they take so they can get themselves through these sets. Sometimes it’s just a show….you pretend to be someone else..become someone you never thought you could be…and the hole gets deeper.
I never thought of myself as one of these girls. What I have been doing “wasn’t porn”. I connect to well and so close with so many of my fans. I didn’t realize what I was doing or why.
The past few years have been very difficult for me. That is no secret to anyone that knows anything about me. I have been working my tail off to support myself, my farm, my rescues, my family, and the list goes on. No matter how hard I worked…..no matter how many people or creatures I helped I STILL had that void inside of my heart and my soul. Connecting with person after person through my site as REAL FRIENDS. I understood the loneliness of the people that I would talk to…because I myself was so lonely. The more I shot…the deeper my darkness got…..the more I understood the pain of others. My friends and my fan. There is ONE common thread to so many of us online here…..the need to be loved, accepted, cared for, the need to have SOMEONE understand you and connect with you. At the end of so many of these emails was that loneliness. SO many men have asked me what they were doing wrong, how to find a special girl like me for THEM. How to fill that “void” in their hearts…in their souls. For a long time I thought I was helping to fill that void in the lives of so many, and in a way I was. But it was all a lie. I could never fill that void for anyone…only be a sinful band aid for it. Only cause the loneliness to deepen….only cause my own soul to ache more.
I have been looking so long and so hard for someone to love me. Love ME for ME. Fill that hole in my soul. Complete me. All this time the only thing standing in my way was me. I have been blind and wrong. On so many levels for so long.
I have decided to leave the world of adult and porn behind me….and follow the lord. I have accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior and am devoting my life to HIS WILL. I have found the one thing that can, will and DOES fill that void…and that’s GOD.
I have been trapped in sin and destruction for so long. Disappointment after disappointment……painful venture after painful venture. I have been my own worst enemy. Holding the key all along that could set me free from the darkness that had slowly enveloped me….that was eating away piece by piece my soul. Burning the light out of my eyes so slowly that I didn’t even see it….didn’t know it…..
It is will a new clarity and a new purpose that I will continue my life. I WANT TO HELP THESE GIRLS! These lost souls…..these girls that are ABUSING THEMSELVES. Selling themselves for NOTHING. I want to help them STOP THIS PAIN. I want to show them the light…..and the love of Jesus. ONLY HE CAN FILL THIS VOID IN THEIR LIFE! HE IS THE WAY….THE ONLY WAY.
I also want to help my fans…my friends……This void in your life and heart. You seek pornography to fill it….it’s only a bandage. Sin isn’t ugly….it’s beautiful. It can’t fill the voids in your life. ONLY GOD CAN FILL THEM!
I love my fans, and I love YOU. I want YOU to feel this peace. I want YOU to get out of the darkness that is all around you. You can not live with one foot in Christ and one in the world. Our time here is so short….today could be your last day here. And what will you have lived for? Died for? There is only one way to heaven and eternal life….and that is through Jesus.
I will not and can not desert my friends and fans. The models…..the world. I can’t and I won’t. I am hoping that the Lord will work through me and guide me to do HIS will and help those that I can. Those that will stop and listen….those that will allow the Holy Spirit to fill them and speak to them as it has me.
I know that there are going to be a lot of people that will think this is a big joke….laugh…..wonder if I have lost my mind….well….I have news for you…. FOOLS MOCK THE TRUTH. There is ONE WAY. And only one way. I have found that way. I have FILLED THE HOLE IN MY SOUL! Filled that void that I couldn’t fill with anything else. My life isn’t about ME anymore…..My life is about God and HIS will. I want to spread HIS love. Tell people about Him……lead people home to Him. I don’t care what you have done…..how lost you think you are….how hopeless you think things are……I HAVE GREAT NEWS FOR YOU! It’s NOT TOO LATE. God LOVES YOU! He wants YOU. All you have to do is accept His gift. IT’S RIGHT THERE FOR YOU! Jesus died on the cross for OUR SINS. The price for us has already been PAID IN FULL.
I will not be attending glamourcon or shooting anything else. The next and last person that will see and enjoy my body will be a husband AS GOD INTENDED! I have asked for forgiveness for what I have done AND HAVE BEEN FORGIVEN! I will spend the rest of my life doing the Lords will and the Lords work. I AM HIS!
I want you ALL to know that I love you very much…..you ARE MY FRIENDS! I want you to know God…..I want you to get out of this darkness…this saddness and follow the word of God. There is ONLY ONE WAY OUT!
I will not abandon you……
As always my email address to ALL of my friends and fans is: ericarosecampbel@aol.com. I understand that this is coming as a complete surprise to my loyal members who have joined my new site to support me and my new venture. I totally understand if you would like a refund for your membership. Please email me at: ericafanclub@gmail.com for a complete refund.
My life is beginning NOW. From this day on I will live HIS will and HIS way. My heart is HIS.
Serving Christ,
Erica
Well, making a good decision doesn’t always make people think good about you. Keep the faith, GBU always.
Indeed! I’ve seen some nasty comments directed at her and God too.
Nice article. I’ve no idea what your blog is about, but chanced across it looking for any news about Erica, and how she’s doing since her retirement from adult modeling.
It wasn’t so much a conversion, she was always a Christian, she just seemed to suddenly realise that she hated being an adult star. He statement is expressed in a way that you can take it as being very religous, but it seems more that she was very conflicted for a long time.
It’s sad. She always seemed like a really nice, genuine person who was comfortable showing off her body.
Unfortunately, it seems her career was making her very unhappy, and fair play to her for quitting if that was the case. But as a christian myself, I dont think she was ever sinful or wrong or bad. I hope the faith she has found doesn’t make her think that way.
My blog has no real theme, except what I’m thinking about at the time, or what catches my attention.
I agree with most of what you say, except to ask a question: What ever happened to sin? To quote Steve Taylor:
A Christian counselor wrote, quote,
“It’s the only humane choice ahead
If you can’t support it
Why don’t you abort it instead?”
You say you pray to the sky
Why? when you’re afraid to take a stand down here
‘Cause while the holy talk reads like a bad ad-lib
Silence screams you were robbing the crib
Say it ain’t none of my business, huh?
A woman’s got a right to choose
Now a grave-digger
Next you pull the trigger
What then?
Whatever happened to sin?
I heard the reverend say
“Gay is probably normal in the good Lord’s sight
What’s to be debated?
Jesus never stated what’s right”
I’m no theology nut, but
The reverend may be a little confused
For if the Lord don’t care
And he chooses to ignore-ah
Tell it to the people
Of Sodom and Gomorrah
Call it just an alternate lifestyle, huh?
Morality lies within
Consciences are restin’
Please repeat the question again
Whatever happened to sin?
When the closets are empty
And the clinics are full
When your eyes have been blinded
By society’s wool
When the streets erupt
In your own backyard
You’ll be on your knees
Praying for the national guard
If you don’t care now
How the problems get solved
You can shake your head later
That you never got involved
‘Cause the call came ringing
From the throne of gold
But you never got the message
‘Cause your mind’s on hold
A politician next door
Swore he’d set the Washington arena on fire
Thinks he’ll gladiate them
But they’re gonna make him a liar
Well he’s a good ol’ boy
Who was born and raised
In the buckle of the Bible Belt
But remember when you step
Into your voting booth
He’ll never lie
He’ll just embellish the truth
Promises were made to be broken, right?
You’ve gotta play the game to win
When you need supporting
Tell them that you’re born again
Whatever happened to sin?
I wanna bang her so much! This is terrible news. Jesus wrecks everything!
It’s a shame that there won’t be newer photos of her gorgeous body. But there are plenty of pics on the web that should keep me satisfied until I become impotent.
So, you’re annoyed that this woman has found something meaningful, because you only see a body to masturbate over. Yes, she is beautiful and has a wonderful body; but she is far more than that. Besides, what chance did you think you had of “banging” her anyway? It’s attitudes like that that wreck everything in my opinion. Why can’t you just wish her well?
I had a brief e mail exchange with her many years ago and found Erica to be really nice, it lasted about four mails. Personally I don’t know what to believe. I have seenso many Christians who pretend to be for real, who detract from the scene, I keep checking it out and investigating, researching and half the time feeling like an idiot.
I sent her a few unanswered e mails to find out what her story was but none of them were ever answered. Who knows.
I hope she is for real. Someone needs to be.
I had a brief conversation with Erica myself and I would say she is definitely genuine.
I also e-mailed her and got no response. I figure her site is under contract or something, so she has nothing to do with it, but can’t change it at present. But that’s just a guess on my part. It is odd that it’s still accepting members if it does belong to her.
But, conversion doesn’t mean we simply change over night or that we don’t try to hold onto things from before (financial security, relationships, fame, bridges…)
To be quite honest though, her being genuine has no effect on me. It doesn’t change anything, only her. I walk my own path and try to live the right way. I don’t do it because others do and I won’t compromise because someone else does.