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“One is impressed immediately by the sense of national harmony… Whatever the price of the Chinese Revolution it has obviously succeeded… in fostering high morale and community purpose. General social and economic progress is no less impressive… The enormous social advances of China have benefited greatly from the singleness of ideology and purpose… The social experiment in China under Chairman Mao’s leadership is one of the most important and successful in history.” New York Times, 8-10-1973.
David Rockefeller,
Bilderberg Group, Council on Foreign Relations and Trilateral Commission
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It’s helplessness, A longing. It keeps me holding out. It’s the future In a moment. Pain, Bitter-sweet and hard. It’s a hollowness; It’s waiting. It’s a hopeless fantasy. It’s all these things and less. I am all these thing, unless… It steals me, It separates. It conquers And it burns. It holds me. It warms me. Will I ever learn? It lessens me, It lifts me; It causes me to fall. It saddens me, It breaks me. Is there any hope at all?
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What is love? There is no chemical formula, although there are certainly chemical responses and physiological changes that result from it. There is no mathematical equation to explain it or to predict its behaviour. Love is one of the greatest mysteries of the human condition with volume upon volume written about it; sonnets by the thousand trying to express it; the vast majority of all songs are written about it in some form or another. It is by far the greatest of human obsessions and desires, greater even than sex.
In English we have only one word to express it, which is why we feel the need to attach adverbs to it such as very much.
In Greek (which is a far more precise language) there are a number of words for different types of love: Philos, meaning brotherly, or friendship love; Eros, which is romantic, sexual love; Agape, unconditional, consuming love; Sturge, old friends connecting after a long time, as though no time has passed, even if many decades intervened; Epithemia, an overwhelming desire to give all (not sexual) (sometimes newlyweds exhibit this in pure form).
In Hebrew explanations can be found in Song of Songs in the Old Testament, which is an amazing book, erotic, romantic, written by King Solomon, Son of King David. The woman in the story says a number of times: “Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires.” It’s something that’s so good, so worthy that to rush it might hurt it. We use the word love so easily. I love chocolate, books, music… In Hebrew there are three words for love that are separate and distinct. The first is ra’yah (רעיה) and only occurs in this one book in the Bible. It means: friend, companion, or even soul-mate. It’s that person who you say about: “She/he is my best friend. I could tell him/her anything.” So, the first thing, the foundation is friendship, Ra’yah. The second is: Ahevah (אהבה). It means: to love someone. It’s the kind of love that is when your heart and your mind are full of that other person. This part can be mistaken easily; Infatuation. It is also the lasting part of the relationship when the butterflies’ wings are no longer fluttering in the stomach. It’s the foundation of respect and admiration that a true love is based upon. The third is: Dod (דוד). This is more passionate, erotic. It means to rock, revel or to fondle. It is the physical, sexual part of love.
I have loved twice in my life. The first time I was twenty one years old and for the most part it was glorious. Sadly, it ended due to my own cowardice and fear. I won’t go into detail as it will sound like justification. Suffice it to say that I have regretted it for over twenty years. I think we got the order right though. When we parted she was still a virgin. As I have gotten older (and hopefully wiser), I have come to understand the importance of this. I am glad it was the case. I know that Fuchsia (for the purposes of this post) married and had a child. Because of what I know of her, I am fairly sure she was still a virgin when she married; and if she wasn’t, it was her husband who she lost it to. So, I take comfort in the fact that she entered that marriage with no sexual baggage (at least not from me).
I have only had sexual intercourse with one person in my life. I’d had a lot of girlfriends, but had previously never felt ready or comfortable enough to take things to that level. Also, in some cases I didn’t feel that the person I was with was ready and I didn’t want it to change that person or the relationship. Perhaps I didn’t feel worthy of it… In this case it was a three year relationship. However, I do regret it as I was never in love with her. She was in love with me, but the feelings I hoped would develop in me never did.
In 2006 I did fall in love for the second time in my forty-something years. Jasmine (again for the purposes of this post) was vital, funny, beautiful, and loving. It was in this relationship that I learned the importance of getting the right types of love in the right order. Jasmine had managed to get dod before ahevah in all her relationships; had been in a relationship with someone who had known her as a child (he was 30 years older than her) and had cheated. I knew most of this the first conversation we ever had. Warning klaxons had been going off in my head for most of the six-and-a-half hours we talked on the phone. But I chose to ignore them. There was something about this woman that I didn’t want to pull away from. There was warmth and we talked easily. I also loved her voice.
Unfortunately, Jasmine was emotionally a bit of a mess. She had abandonment and rejection issues due to her father. She’d never seemed to be able to move past it. I tried to help as best as I could, mainly listening and showing support (that I was on her side). I naively thought I could be enough to fill this void in her. The moment I realised I had fallen in love with her I told her; it was out of my mouth as soon as it passed through my mind. I don’t remember what her response was as I wasn’t looking for one. I simply wanted her to know how I felt. I wasn’t looking for paybacks.
The following day I found out that she had lied to me and met up with an ex-boyfriend. It wasn’t anything romantic or sexual; she merely had this obsession with knowing why he’d broken up with her (she was clearly out of his league, physically speaking). She had met up with him previously, with my backing. I knew she wouldn’t get the answer she wanted; in fact, I knew she wouldn’t get an honest answer at all, but I felt I had to give her the opportunity to find out for herself. The lie was too much, however. There had been little lies before that I had let go because the motives were never malicious or dishonest in themselves.
This time it was too big to let go and the following day after she came over to try to patch things up I realised that too much damage had been done. I still loved her, but knew we couldn’t be together.
In 2007 she got back in touch because she needed to talk to someone she could trust not to judge her. She’d made some poor decisions regarding relationships and “needed to confess” to someone. In hindsight, it was pretty thoughtless of her to come to me as a lot of the “confession” was of a sexual nature and rather detailed. But I wanted to be there for her and, painful as it was to hear, didn’t want to turn her away.
After that contact was re-established. We talked on the phone pretty much every night, for most of the night. That’s the thing with Jasmine, she can’t do things by halves; she drains you dry. We discussed getting back together after unsubtle hints in that direction. I always liked the fact that Jasmine is rather artless and I can see her coming a mile off. It took eight months of talking, reassuring, and wooing before we finally got back together. We lasted four days.
When she had told me about her sexual antics I had managed to convince myself that she was a victim of thoughtless men. But when we were getting rather passionate on Monday afternoon and she asked me if it was a problem that she was “being greedy about sex”, the penny finally dropped. I said it wasn’t, but realised that actually it was. It was a problem because it was her; the woman I loved and who had been with other men (everyone she’d been out with, as it turns out). Suddenly she wasn’t a victim anymore; she was a willing participant and possibly an instigator. I’m glad to say that we never went “all the way”.
She was holding me after our time of passion and she told me she loved me and would be right by my side. One thought went through my head, which is kind of funny in retrospect: Bollocks! It wasn’t a case of malice or anger, it was merely realism. I knew she meant it for that moment.
Four hours after I walked her to the bus stop, she phoned and told me she didn’t things were going to work out. During my walk back from the bus stop I had felt something was terminal and that things had changed for the worse. I agreed with her, which seemed to knock the wind out of her sails somewhat. I was trying to make it as easy as possible for her to break up with me with no fear of recriminations. I’d over-played my hand. She decided we should sleep on it and we broke up officially the following morning.
The point I want to make with all this is that it is so easy to get relationships arse-about-face these days. Too often sex is on the menu before the relationship has barely started. I’m not saying wait for marriage (although that would show true commitment), but why are we so weak that we keep falling into the same patterns?
We all need to love and be loved, but how many of our past relationships have ended? For most of us all (but the one we’re in). So, each sexual encounter from the past is brought over into the new relationship like a spectre. When we have sex with the one person that it truly matters with (the person we really love), is anything we do together a discovery for either partners; or simply something we’ve done before with someone else? Do you ever wish you could take away all those past experiences and that all things could be fresh and new? Sadly, that isn’t possible. We have to live with the consequences of our actions and sometimes they can destroy something good.
I still love Jasmine and think about her every day. She’s in every romantic female character I read about in fiction. I see parallels in movies and TV shows. Her smile is a constant longing. Friends have heard me say that the best way to get over a lost love is the next one; but the truth is that love doesn’t just happen.
Sometimes it’s a choice, although rarely. Mostly it’s a surprise. It creeps up when we’re looking the other way. Jasmine asked me many times why I loved her. The only answer I could honestly give her was “because I do.” She hadn’t done anything to warrant it. It wasn’t a reward for services rendered. It was something freely given.
I’m sure I could make a list of things I love about her and it would be a long list and would not take me long to write; but not one single thing could be said to be the reason. I loved her because I loved her.
I have little doubt that she will get in touch again when she needs me and I won’t turn her away. I won’t take her back either; but I’ll be there for her if she needs me. She has sent the odd text to find out what’s going on in my life (who I’m seeing is probably closer to the truth, but that’s ok).
This post hasn’t gone the way I was inspired when I started it. I wanted to discuss the concepts, psychology, physiological, spiritual aspects of love; but I suppose we can only really go on our own experience.
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Jasmine sent me a text on New Year’s Day wishing me every blessing for 2010. It’s been nearly two years now since we broke up and I found myself wondering if we could actually be friends. I’ve written to her (although I didn’t mention that thought, only told her what’s been happening in my life in 2009). The thing is she has always rather taken advantage in the past when I allowed her to phone; calling me every night for hours at a time and I still had her scent in my nostrils and the will to have her in my arms. I don’t have those wishes anymore, so perhaps it would be ok.
Well, I’ll see if she takes the time to actually answer my e-mail or if she simply texts. If she replies, I’ll give her my new phone number. If she texts, she’s the same Jasmine.
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It seems to me that there are two words that work very well to keep Americans from speaking out against anything their government is doing: Un-American and unpatriotic. I know Americans with whom this is not the case, however.
I have a friend in Wisconsin. She is ex Navy and we get along fine; but there are topics that are no-go areas. One night we were talking and I mentioned my fears for America’s education system. She suddenly asked me to stop. “I can’t discuss this subject,” she said. “Why?” I asked, bemused. “I am ex military; I love my country and believe in my government,” she told me. That was it; end of discussion. I hadn’t been irreverent or unkind about America. I had spoken out of concern for a friend’s country’s future.
Unfortunately, she had missed the point of who she should be loyal to. Her allegiance should be to the American constitution, not to the presidential office or any leader. In fact, the president should be loyal to the same thing, as he solemnly promised to uphold it when he was sworn in.
I have seen this mistake time and again when previous presidents and the latest incumbent have gradually taken more and more steps to weaken and destroy that very constitution. Here’s a list of some of the major crimes against the US Constitution:
NAFTA (Started with Clinton and Gore and continuing to this day without American consent or debate)
Patriot Act
US military forces acting as law enforcement after Hurricane Katrina, confiscating guns without even paperwork to allow the owners to get them back after the state of emergency.
Cap and Trade
CFR (Council For Foreign Relations). Where president’s are selected…
Trilateral Commission
The Federal Reserve (that is neither federally owned or a reserve. See Federal Reserve Act 1914). Also it has never been audited!
Bank Bailouts at the expense of American poor and middle-class.
Derivatives and so-called toxic debts (which are worthless in themselves)
Environmental Police who can inspect your home or business and charge you for the cost. If your home or business is found to not be in compliance, you have to pay a fine of up to £1000 per day and you can be judged as unlawfully occupying your own home for each day you are not in compliance (Say that out loud; unlawful occupancy! In your own home?)
Centralising of local police forces (DHS and FEMA in charge of this). FEMA indoctrinating local police to view the founding fathers as terrorists and see those who value the constitution as suspicious.
RFID (Radio Frequency ID). Mandatory for pets and all owned animals, already. How long until used on people? Protect your children by knowing where they are at all times… Well, you won’t but someone will and then the next logical step is to implant everyone.
And then there’s the issue of President Obama’s pre-election pledge to reverse the criminal practices of the previous president to bypass congress in creating new laws and is doing much the same. He also promised to give a week for citizens to be able to read any new bill online before it goes to a vote. He’s rushing through 300 page additions at ungodly hours that no one has a copy of or time to read before voting. Now that’s democracy!
So, why has a non-American like me written this post? America-bashing? Hardly. Americans need to know that their own country is being stolen from them and they need to act now. Your elected officials should be afraid of you, not the other way around. Please Americans, take back America before the corporations finish their management buyout and you no long have a say in how your country is run or a constitution.
Please research this for yourself. Don’t let apathy steal something so precious. You’ll regret it in the end and your children will ask you what happened to their rights. Don’t let your answer be: “Dunno.”
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You’re always there. Every other woman is you; every romantic female character is you; every desire, still you. The void that you left remains unfilled. The longing is still there; to touch you, hold you, kiss you.
But I never will. Even though you still call me. Even though you’re still intrigued by my life. Even though the attraction is still there and keeps you coming back. I will never take you in my arms again.
I couldn’t risk that. And besides, I know you now. I can’t look into your eyes knowing what I know. I was a fool who ignored the truth of you.
But still, it’s always you.
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The following is from an e-mail I received 21st May 2009:
At midday today, Home Secretary Jacqui Smith made the announcement to the House of Commons that the Gurkha Justice Campaign have been fighting for for years. All ex-Gurkhas who have served more than 4 years in the British Army will have the right to settle in the UK if they wish.
After such a long fight, with huge ups and downs, this is a superb announcement.
We simply would not have won this fight without the massive, overwhelming support of all those who have supported our campaign. To the hundreds of thousands of people who have signed Gurkha Justice petitions, lobbied their MP, campaigned, attended rallies and marches – thank you so much to you all. This is your victory. It would not have happened without you.
The Government has now responded to that campaign after court cases, votes in Parliament, a huge media campaign and, most importantly, massive public support. I am delighted, and humbled, at what has been achieved by our remarkable team.
The whole campaign has been based on the belief that those who have fought and been prepared to die for our country should have the the right to live in our country. We owe them a debt of honour – a debt that will now be paid.
With warmest good wishes,
Joanna
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A critique of Alex Jones
October 14, 2011 by sever2morrow
Firstly, I am a paid subscriber to prisonplanet.tv and infowars.com. I am not anti Alex Jones. I think what he is doing is important. I am not a provocateur or an insider. I am someone who knows that reality isn’t what one reads in the press or sees on the mainstream news.
But, this is such an important area of our lives, as national economies and the global economy continue to collapse, personal freedoms and liberties continue to be eroded by governments and globalist organisations, that the personality who speaks for the rest of us needs to be above reproach. And Alex Jones is arguably the most prominent person in the alternative media.
Alex Jones needs to make up his mind about the mainstream corporate media. Either they are co-opted, propagandists and cheerleaders for the system or they are not. Alex has a very bad habit of criticising the mainstream media as “corporate whores” and saying they lie continually. Then he will use a story from a mainstream newspaper or other media outlet as evidence that it is true. You can’t have it both ways. He will then use one of his key phrases like “it’s admitted” about the information he is portraying. This, in Alex Jones mode of speech means it is either in mainstream news or official government documents.
Language is very important. In a world where words are twisted and meanings are subject to an understanding of the powers behind the words (the adept and the profane). We know that the global elites and secret societies use symbols and words with multiple meanings to send different messages to different levels of understanding and inside knowledge.
Therefore those who are on the frontline of the “info war” need to be specific and consistent in their language and need to be “wise as serpents”.
Alex Jones has a tendency to exaggerate, which is absolutely wrong by anyone in the “truth movement”. There are certain key phrases that Alex uses over and over that are certainly exaggerations. “Deep research” is one of them. It’s research. It doesn’t matter if you spent an hour or thirty hours on it. Many of us have read Tragedy and Hope: A History of the World in Our Time by Carroll Quigley. That isn’t deep research. It is a major undertaking being such a long and fairly dry book. It also isn’t deep research if you read three or four web sites on one subject. The internet is good and bad in that way (and in every other, I suppose). There is so much disinformation out there and the internet is a breeding ground for hyperbole and apocryphal tales. I think what Jones means by “deep research” is having declassified documents, various sources of information that he trusts in their interpretation of current events, history, political science and economics like Webster Tarpley (whose writing and speaking style is rather over-stated and sensationalist, with some true expertise), G. Edward Griffen (I can not thing of a single criticism of this writer, researcher and documentary film-maker), Gerald Celente (solid research and forecasting of economic trends, if a little abrasive).
No man is an island of itself, of course; but equally true, no man is infallible. There is no one out there today who does not have an agenda or their own bias. We have to realise that from the beginning if we are to wade through truth, half-truths, lies, and disinformation. It comes down to discernment.
One of the other criticisms I would level at Alex Jones is he is too impulsive and too angry. He talks about how he refrains from coming to conclusions or making decisions until he’s played them out in his head for a few days and yet he begins a rant on his daily radio show and then suddenly comes out with a new plan of action and states that it’s an impulse.
A wise man speaks little and listens to all. He is slow to express and opinion and never impulsive. A wise man is not angry or given to outbursts of passion. This doesn’t describe Alex Jones, does it? When I think of Alex Jones, the words cult of personality come to mind and a face contorted into a caricature as he grunts and raves into the microphone. A good example of this lack of wise judgement was evidenced in 2010 when he made a live call on his show to the TSA See Something, Say Something line. His whole approach was wrong, if he wanted to make a truly valid point. When he got to speak to some low-level phone operator at the FBI he proceeded to barrage him with information about false flag terror attacks like Tonkin and the poor guy on the other end of the phone didn’t know what to think. He probably just put it down to another whack-job.
Alex had over-played his hand and the call went no further. He’d dumped a load of information that was meaningless to the person he had spoken to and was unable to get any further. If he’d been wise and played the concerned citizen without his information club, he might’ve gotten to speak to someone with some authority, but he didn’t. As usual, Alex was an instrument of blunt force trauma. He’d told every person who answered the phone that he was Alex Jones of infowars.com streaming live around the globe. Yes, that’s not going to put someone on the defensive and make them guarded, is it?
Having said all that, I don’t believe any of the ridiculous conspiracy theories about Jones; that he’s CIA disinformation specialist or Jesuit mind-control operative. I believe he is who he thinks he is. I don’t want that to appear as double speak or code, so I’ll explain. I believe Alex is straight and although lacking in wisdom is true to what he believes. He wants to fight globalism and save his country and her constitution. He is passionate about this endeavour and I don’t believe he cares too much about making money, except to allow him to reach more people. I am, however rather dubious that this idyllic America that Jones sentimentalises about ever existed. I believe it has always been a totally corrupt country with a split personality.
I will continue to support his efforts, but I will criticise them when necessary. I am not a sheep. If he’s wrong, I’ll say he is. I hope he reads this and thinks about whether the points I make are valid or not.
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